Creature

I am a creature of both darkness and light. There is no realm in which I cannot reside I let you people in hoping that you will be lead away from your misery. But as I lead you away I don't end pain in the purest form. I give you a choice, to live in a sweet epiphany in euphoric sunrise, or to find a new beautiful sorrow to waste your soul away. The common misconception is that rules limit our lives, we fear what will happen if we decide to break them. The trick is not how to break them, it's how to properly bend them. Exploit their meanings so that they work in your favor. It's not hard to stick it to the sheep and their shepherds, when it's their world you're using against them.

Our future seems bleak at most times, there seems to be a lack of silver in the linings of even the whitest clouds now. We should look forward to the rain as it may be the answer to this problem. But even the rain can taste like tears in this world of endless sorrow. The answer to most of our problems seems to be in the blood, and what is rain but the blood of a cloud. Let stop looking for brighter days, lets start looking for Grey skies, otherwise in the end we will end up with the darkest nights.

As we learn that nothing is forever we start to count away the days to the end of each road. Remember me not as some unforeseen evil, or angel of death, but as your beacon of hope as I will lead you to the brink of insanity. Away from sorrow into destiny, tomorrow will come and you will see the sunrise of hope kill the night of doubt.

The Virus

It seems that I am a virus, I start in one persons life and spread to others in little time. People look at me and they see a man that has no cares, no direction, no restraints. But what you get instead is a man who poisons your very being. I live with no remorse, I have no use for apologies. I open doors of corruption and drag you through, in the end you were never what I had in mind, I make it okay to be bad, and claim to be good. I have moved from person to person, life to life, like a cancer ravaging and eating until there i nothing left but a mindless drone who sits before me needing my poisons. I am taking over minds, spreading my evil and spreading my wings.


As the daylight dies, the moon will rise and endless night will begin for my following. People lose their way so I give them direction and hope, I feed them positive hope when its their negativity I'm after. Open the window and feel the darkness hold it close because it will be your only saving grace. There is no love or happiness in your life, so embrace your rage, kiss your anger because in the end there is only you and no one else. Take your sorrows and turn them into fuel, give new meaning to your lives and let the world see that you're no longer lost they can not ignore you anymore.


We hide ourselves from the world around us never telling others the truth. Giving no life to our futures just trapping us in the past. I am imprisoned in my own mind. I fear myself yet I love what I have become. Please climb into my head with me so I can show you what its like to be in a prison where the skies the limit but your constantly chained down.


I am the white Raven in a sea of black roses join my flock, and fly into tomorrow......

Searching for sunlight..........

"Some are born to sweet delight, others born to endless night"-Jim Morrison

As the days move forward the sun never rises in my life. As i try to be happy something always goes wrong. Tomorrow won't be better than today, and yesterday will never fade away, I've thought about just walking away and starting over. I walk alone down this bumpy road love never finds me, and happiness is not part of my destiny. I wonder where fate will lead me as I fall, this road I am on is the long way to travel down. I sit down occasionally to look around and think, is any of this worth it I am always in pain or in some induced state.

I am waiting for the sun to rise but that day will never come. I will never be happy, but its knowing that fact is the only reason I haven't ended my life yet. There is no other person out there who feels for me, I know there are many who feel like me. I can never see the sunlight because its not meant to be. I'm sorry to those who have put faith in me, I will never be what you expect, I will never be the person you believe exists.

As the lines of each day blur, I see but I'm blinded.........

Hitting the Wall

Well this is it, my first blog and must I say it couldn't come at a better time. I seem to have literally hit a brick wall in my life. As of right now I am caught in one spot trying to hurdle myself over the wall to the next. I mean I am so confused about everything from my job to my mentality. Its like I've been hit in the face with a frying pan only to realize that the person that swung the pan was me.

With work it seems like all I get are empty promises that take me no where. I am debating if I should quit my job after finding a better one, or if I should just gut it out like they keep telling me to. Its like please give me a break I'm not five empty promises of Sata Clause and the Toothe Fairy are not going to keep me happy. Its coming down to the boiling point and thats all I can say for now.

As for my Mentality, I finally found myself being able to be happy, but I still get overly paranoid and irrational at times. This would actually explain why I'm up at 2 a.m. typing a blog instead of sleeping. Its just funny because a few words from the right person(yeah you know what I mean) can make or break an entire day for me. I don't like that at all, considering that I am a huge rebel and free spirit, so for one person to shape my mind and take control makes me feel even crazier.

I ask myself why I let this person take hold of me, I know the answer and its very obvious. Hell if they haven't figured it out they must not see any of the writing I left on the wall. I wonder when the right time for me to actually make it public is right? I mean I could do it at anytime but, its hard to say what the perfact words and perfect time are. I guess I will keep riding down the road of life until I find the answer.