Well this is it, my first blog and must I say it couldn't come at a better time. I seem to have literally hit a brick wall in my life. As of right now I am caught in one spot trying to hurdle myself over the wall to the next. I mean I am so confused about everything from my job to my mentality. Its like I've been hit in the face with a frying pan only to realize that the person that swung the pan was me.
With work it seems like all I get are empty promises that take me no where. I am debating if I should quit my job after finding a better one, or if I should just gut it out like they keep telling me to. Its like please give me a break I'm not five empty promises of Sata Clause and the Toothe Fairy are not going to keep me happy. Its coming down to the boiling point and thats all I can say for now.
As for my Mentality, I finally found myself being able to be happy, but I still get overly paranoid and irrational at times. This would actually explain why I'm up at 2 a.m. typing a blog instead of sleeping. Its just funny because a few words from the right person(yeah you know what I mean) can make or break an entire day for me. I don't like that at all, considering that I am a huge rebel and free spirit, so for one person to shape my mind and take control makes me feel even crazier.
I ask myself why I let this person take hold of me, I know the answer and its very obvious. Hell if they haven't figured it out they must not see any of the writing I left on the wall. I wonder when the right time for me to actually make it public is right? I mean I could do it at anytime but, its hard to say what the perfact words and perfect time are. I guess I will keep riding down the road of life until I find the answer.
